Saturday, January 29, 2011

The day arrived.

Last Saturday, my parents made a 3hr trip each way to tell us face-to-face that my youngest sister who is 9 years younger than me is, yep, you guessed it, pregnant. Now, while I would have loved to hold it together, I didn't. And I still can't. Tears fill my eyes as I type this.

I managed to pull it together and apologize profusely and tried to explain.my tears were.happy ears for them and painful tears for us. I even pulled it together enough to go out to dinner. I felt horrible after they left. Although they say they understand, I know they don't really. I know they hurt to see me/us in pain and grief but I want them to be happy. I want to be happy. I am happy for my sis and BIL but hurt so much because of our situation.

In other news, AF arrived this morning (2 days late, which I must admit, secret hope and dreams of going through pregnancy with my sis ensued) and the BRIGHTEST moment of the year so far, we are a few hours away from meeting our new little puppy! We have been patiently waiting for about a year as we researched and prepared. Excited to meet him and hoping he brings joy and much distraction to our lives!
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12 comments:

  1. SueJanuary 29, 2011 at 9:13 AM

    Oh, I'm sorry. I know how this feels. It is so painful. You want to be happy for them but it hurts so much. You will be a mom and dad too one day, its just not your day yet. I'll be praying it is soon.

    Post a pic of your puppy when you get him or her. They brighten up your lives a ton. Enjoy!!!!

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  2. Miss MacJanuary 29, 2011 at 10:24 AM

    That must have been really hard. Your parents were sweet to tell you in person and your response was heartfelt and understandable. I hope everything works out for you soon as well!
    A puppy will be a BIG distraction, some for the better and some 'what were we thinking' days, lol! Can't wait to see him/her!

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  3. MNJanuary 29, 2011 at 12:34 PM

    I know how you feel... MY BIL & SIL announced their pregnancy at Christmas time this year and we were all staying in the same hotel room so I had nowhere to go to grieve. The icing on the cake? They'd been trying for 3 months (successful on their third attempt) as compared to our 3 years and my BIL hadn't even been home much as he was traveling on business. I know how you feel and you are not alone. Stay strong and keep hope alive in your hearts. One day, you will share the same exciting news with your family and just imagine the joy and elation you will feel! Hugs! Feel free to follow me at www.infertilemyrtleme.blogspot.com. I'm relatively new to the TTC online community. :)

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  4. Out With InJanuary 29, 2011 at 4:30 PM

    I know that feeling well. I'm sorry
    Your puppy will be such a fun and cute addition to your family.

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  5. SLES75January 29, 2011 at 4:30 PM

    I'm so sorry for getting the news that way. It sucks to get the news, let alone when someone drives 3 hours to tell you.

    Good luck with the puppy....they are so much fun, but so much work! Enjoy as they grow up really fast! Can't wait to hear all about your puppy adventures...it is a good distrtaction!

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  6. KellyJanuary 29, 2011 at 8:11 PM

    How awfully hard that is. It would've been nice to have a chance to process that before a dinner out also. Nothing about it is fair. I'm so sorry you have to go through this. How exciting to have a new little puppy coming! That is really awesome! Please post pics when you have some, he will be a very much needed bright spot right now.

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  7. RebeccaJanuary 30, 2011 at 1:33 AM

    I am so sorry. I can only imagine how difficult that must be to hear, and it's also hard when your parents don't understand. I've heard "I don't understand why you're sad, shouldn't you just be happy for them?" as if there's no grasp of the idea that people can (and do!) feel more than one emotion at a time...

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  8. BabystepsFebruary 11, 2011 at 12:12 AM

    I am so sorry. My heart sank when I read this post. I totally understand - tears of happy/joy and tears of sadness. We have them all, don't we?
    Sending you big hugs!

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  10. natural fertilityAugust 25, 2011 at 4:30 AM

    It is really tough to face that kind of situation.You maybe happy for your sister but you feel something that envy them somehow. You just have to let nature takes it cores. You can have a child someday. In case you have fertility concerns, I found this site that maybe helpful. http://www.natural-fertility-prescription.com

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  11. AnonymousOctober 7, 2011 at 7:38 PM

    You are an amazing person and your relationship with you husband during this time is absolutely remarkable and inspiring. Thank you for inspiring me with your courage. - Julie, TTC 3 years

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  12. natural fertilityOctober 10, 2011 at 4:28 AM

    It is really a mixed emotion when you know another family member of yours would get pregnant and you don't. If you have been trying for more than 12 months, then I guess you need to consult a doctor for proper advice. You have to have hope and be in positive outlook as you could. You do not have to pressure yourself. In case you have fertility concerns, I found this site that maybe helpful. http://www.natural-fertility-prescription.com

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