Fertilization update

Or lack thereof. Zero eggs fertilized. No embryos. No transfer. We are on our way home. Heartbroken.

Fertilization Limbo

Of my 4 eggs, 3 were mature.  They ICSI'd the 3 eggs and 2 did not fertilize.  The other one - well, they are not sure yet.  It was "uncertain" if fertilization occurred so they wanted to give it another day.  We have to wait until tomorrow morning to find out if we may have 1 embryo for transfer. 

Ugh.  This is not what we expected.  Not a good day...

Oh and for the record, I started progesterone support (Crinone) and Estrace this morning...just in case.

ER Update - Dec 20th

They retrieved 4 eggs this morning....not sure about maturity or fertilization, yet. They will call us tomorrow with that information and also let us know if it will be a 3 or 4 day transfer.  The process was a little different than our other RE as they brought DH back for the procedure.  I was already out but it was nice he was there when I woke up.  :)

The nurse who prepped the IV totally missed my vein or something and it was a river of blood running down my arm....glad I'm not squeamish!  Seriously, there was blood everywhere!  I know she was embarrassed when the other tech came in and said something about it....then, she asks me, "Is that always trouble?".  I was like, "Well, no, actually never."  She did not have much else to say.


Anyways, not much else happening, just resting and relaxing.  I slept for about 3hrs when we got back and then we went to Chzcake Factory for dinner!  Hoping and praying for good news tomorrow.....hopefully, we have 4 strong embabies growing!!!

CD 11 Update

Wow, I.am.so.tired.  These meds are kicking my butt!  Last round of stim meds were last night, HCG shot is tonight (in 10 minutes), and ER on Monday at 10am!

Yesterday's #s:
E2 = 1811
P4 = .8
LH = 10.03
follicles = 5 total (3 on the left, 2 on right)

Even though there are still 2 measurable follies on the right, they are slightly smaller than Wed.  My right ovary was smaller yesterday than Wed, too.  What does this mean?  How/why does an ovary get smaller and follies get smaller?  How can this be when we've been pumping my body full of stims for over a week?! 

Anyways, I digress....please, pLeAsE, PLEASE let Monday bring good news about good quality, mature eggs!

CD 9 update

Today's #'s:
E2 = 970
P4 = 1.2
LH = 10.01
follicles = 5 total (3 on left, 2 on right)

So...obviously, we were hoping for more follicles but I'm trying not to caught up on quantity and think quality.  Ugh.  So tough.  I will continue on the same medication doses and go back on Friday morning.  With this pace, they think ER will be Monday and ET on Thursday or Friday. 

I came across this meditation CD series called Circle+Bloom.  Has anyone used them?  Since we had already started this cycle, I passed this time but saw something similar at our Center's boutique today.  I bought the one for IVF cycles.  It is on my agenda tonight. 

Also, I had a massage today at the Center.  One word, relaxed.  They offer acupuncture, too.  I did it regularly during our last IVF cycle.  I haven't this time but thinking about adding it to mix for the next week. 

IVF #2 underway!

It is official....we are in the midst of our IVF cycle!  Thursday's CD 3 b/w and u/s were fine so I started stims that evening.  Lining was good a 6ish and, best news of all, my FSH was 10.9!  I started DHEA about 6 weeks before this....so hopefully, that is a good sign!

We went for our first appointment at the new RE's office today.  Wowzers!  They have their shit together!  No waiting for a phone call from the nurse, we have an online patient account to login and see all of the lab and u/s results.  The staff were so nice and welcoming, even gave us tips for shopping and avoiding sales tax!  LOL 

E2 = 465 today (CD 7) a little high, but I'll take that over suppressed any day!  We go back Wednesday and Friday.  So far, so good! 

CD 1 (a little late)

Yeah, I started spotting late Monday afternoon and AF was in full force yesterday.  CD 1 *officially* yesterday, 12/7.  I go for CD 3 baselines (bloodwork and ultrasound) tomorrow morning!

Also, need opinions and thoughts, please!  I've been thinking about starting another blog and sharing it with our families.  There are a few posts I've wrote here in the past that might hurt someone's feelings.  I'm concerned about that. 

Has anyone else done this?  other ideas?  I don't want it to be more complicated (I'm already not a daily blogger :) but I think it might help shed light on the reality of what we are going through.

It figures...

AF should have been here yesterday....this morning, at the latest.  My body was telling me she was on her way....cramps off and on since Fri, feeling hot, achy, and b*itchy (sorry, babe!).  The TP had been stark white until about an hour ago....TMI:  it was a pinkish but not blood.

No HPTs in the house and I would have to drive 45 min roundtrip in snowy, treacherous weather.  I NEED to be working for the next 5 hours to keep on schedule for getting things done before we are supposed  to leave!  So DH is going to call after work and bring one home if the witch hasn't fully arrived by then.  Now, just to keep myself busy and stop obsessing!

It figures this would happen.  I have been stressed all kinds of crazy from work and just anxious about this cycle and all that it brings.  Just ready to get this show on the road!

1 week to go

About this time next Thursday evening, we will be arriving at our hotel in New York!  So excited to get this started!  Our first shipment of meds arrived today....it just makes it all more real!  2 questions:  does Menopur have to be refrigerated?  (couldn't find anything on the packaging)  and is it difficult to mix the Menopur?  DH is the official chemist and is now worried once he found out he will have to mix this like daily!  I just laughed and he said, "Glad someone can laugh about it.  It freaks me out!"  LOL  Love him!